confused insomniac

It happened again. Four weeks in a row.

For some inexplicable reason, Tuesdays are turning out to be practically sleepless nights. I have no idea why I'm getting bouts of insomnia on this particular night...ok, for one particular week, I do know the reason. But otherwise, I think it's plain weird. Oh well. My sleeping patterns have been somewhat strange lately and my dreams are leaving me a tad perplexed. Maybe it's stress. Maybe it's the confused state of mind.

I'm not sure how I should really feel at the moment. So many things have been happening. I finally obtained closure regarding a certain aspect in my life. At least I think I did, although admittedly, it was not what I wanted. But perhaps it's what I needed. As Coehlo wrote in one of his many inspiring works:

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.

At least now I know.

However, there are still so many questions. And I feel like I don't truly know what I want anymore. I suppose time will tell. I just hope this phase passes soon. It seems to suck out any concentration I might have, when I'm in dire need of it - concentration I mean!